What's happening lately?

To those who know me very good you know that I'm a very happy person and it's hard to make me feel bad, or sad. But I know that some of you who have checked my blog out lately have realized a certain mood of sadness on me.

Mmm... well.. I'm kinda of deep thinking these days. Maybe is the music I'm listening every night, the end of my term as LCP, "feelings" confussion, the problems I'm facing or the fact that I just have 2 months left here .

Sorry to all of you who has denoted this on me but you all know how honest I am with everybody about the way I am and the way I behave. Anyway this is my blog and it is a good instrument for letting these things go out there.

Past experiences coming to my mind, lost developing and future opportunities, troubles at work and strange feelings for someone who I still not understanding are maybe some of the reasons which has destabilized my supposed former emotional balance.

Sometimes that desire of feeling in the mood of loving and smiling to everything is not enough. Sometimes you want to feel free of showing the whole of your feelings outside. Sometimes it's hard to understand what is forbidden to forget and erase from your mind. Sometimes you do not hear those voices inside your mind... they sound like whispers telling you how great you are. Sometimes you just do not trust yourself at the time of choosing who joins your world. The blue of a sea you love can be comfortable but it does not kick off completely the fact of feeling this way. Sometimes you hate the way you feel because you know you're so happy in your life that you can't fight the feeling when it goes so down. Sometimes you feel so scared....